its not a bright day...

morning guys.

im in moderate mood today..not so happy..not so sad..but, suke sbb hr ni cipta rekod baru for this year iaitu g kerja lewat 1 jam!..wut happened hajar!..sbb dah set in mind, bos takde g Dubai..tp tak pikir lak MR Big Boss ade kat opis..gua luper beb!tp..aku still selamat, sbb tak terserempak ngan dia..im sorry boss!

nape ntah pg tadi malas nak bagun..smlm tido takla lewat sgt..ko 12.30 dah tido..pas perang sejuk sket dgn dia..aku rasa im not recover yet from last week..from wut had happened to me..the pictures. the lies, keep on flying around my head..ive told him..it takes time for me to trust him again..but, nobody really understand me..

sekarang, diri aku sendirik yang can wake me up..takleh harapkan org..but, one of my frens said..u just go with the flow..dont bother wut happened around you..about that gurl!..about my parents!..just let it happended..you just keep in faith with God..Hes The only One that knows everything..keep on praying Hajar..He will show you one day...

lupakan la semua tu yek cik hajar..teruskan kehidupan seperti biasa..dont think too much..apa2 pun, usaha itu penting..now, aku nak wake up dengan membuat semua kerja2 aku yang telah tertangguh since last week..aku nak bising2 kecoh2 cam biasa..keep on smiling to everyone..taknak diam2 lagi..membunuh diri gak la if kita pendam rasa ni..can cause brain damaged aku rasa..haha..i had brightened up my days!!!!

hari ni my moms burfday!!..hepi burfday moms! you are the best mom in the world..sayang mak!!angah dah tau nak bg mak ape..just wait and see k..mmuah!

to bie, i will always love you sayang...ape2 pon yg abg dah wat kat syg, you are forgiven..because im so in love with u since 13 years ago..just give me space and time to recover..

we'll tie the knot as soon as possible

trust me...